April Taught Us

If you do not ask
you will never know.

Movement is easy.
Stillness is difficult.

Things will
probably
be okay.

Stop.
Stop again.

A lot of good
is possible.

Some things
never change.

A half-familiar tune
on the wind.

Yes.

You
still
believe.

It is all still there
waiting for you.

He Asks, I Answer

How long does it take
how long
to learn something
something hard as
riding a bike
knitting a sock
teaching a class
growing a tomato
cooking a turkey?

I am here, honey
to tell you
it takes a long time
a long time
and you will
skin your knee
start over ten times
embarrass yourself a little
over water
burn your hand
and beat your little head
against the table.

But the hard things
the really hard things
the things that drive you crazy
the things you want the most
are almost always
worth it.

Complaint

After a long day
a long day of chores
with some worry
and a niggly little headache
I am more than happy
to sit down and complain
just a little
over dinner.

Breeze

A strong breeze
blowing through this afternoon
knocking things from the trees
and driving the windchimes crazy.

After Dinner 2008

With the meal all but done
we sit over what's left
a spoon of potatoes
shrimp in a small
puddle of lemon
as we finish our wine
and the music
comes to an end.

Meanwhile, my son
is at the computer
leaving a comment on my blog.

The Certainty of the Green World

Sometimes
it is
the smallest bird
that sings
the biggest song.

Twenty Five

Pumping gas
I am shocked
by the low
bulgy look
passenger side
front tire.
Seventy five cents
(remember when the
solution was a quarter)
buys a little
bit of confidence
to drive home on.

Late

A feather spirals down
from an empty sky
looks like rain.

Radio

I can handle the bad news
war reports on the radio
if I am chopping vegetables
while I listen

can deal with the world’s troubles
if I’m in the process
of solving my own
evening hunger
our need to tell
the day’s stories
around our safe little table.

But without my safety net
of head bent towards
a sharp knife and the cool surrender
of carrot before me
I have to turn it off.

Afternoon

I've been waiting
all day
to hear
your little song.

Passover

I am always sorry
to have looked any closer
a flash of gray and white
and at second glance
it is not one
but two dead birds.

Young and small
but not babies
no innocent tumble
from the nest
but gutted
by a neighborhood cat.

My son wants to look
and I have to let him.

Death, we see
is often brutal
random
cannot be helped

and my son moves on
and I don’t know if I can.

Domestic

So, you thinking about a poem, he asked
pouring a second glass of wine
as we sat over
what's left of dinner
picking at the broccoli
until there was not enough
to save for tomorrow.

Things I can't Do

The backyard birds I cannot protect
the season I cannot slow
the rain swollen door I cannot open
the color of the sky I cannot reinvent
something
I cannot forget.

A Little Pencil, Scratching

Why do they work best when worn down
half used-up
when the point is uncertain
and the eraser
all but gone
little metal barrel that will
rub holes
if you make an error
not easily fixed
with an enthusiastic crossing-out?

My wild youth was spent
writing with only the darkest ink
fearing revision
like a black cat or shattered mirror.
Today I embrace
my inner pencil
its willingness everyday
to keep moving
making mistake
after glorious mistake.

Leak

We often speak
of sign and portents
controlling things
that will not be
controlled
the radiator leak
the toilet apparatus
we try and fail
again and again
to fix
an augury of good will
we are still searching for.

Not

Not a single moment
to spare today
no slow walk
no quiet break
or glance out the window
or glimpse of the sun playing shadows on the blinds.

No time
today
for a second look
at the velvety red flowers
petunias bending
in the breeze
that blew right past me
today.

Long Gone

After the last time
I backed down the icy driveway
you headed someplace warm, third world
and unstable
and I fled South
throwing mittens, scarves and wooly hats
out the car window
saying goodbye
to all that was
frozen and snow and smoke and loss
as the grassed greened up
on the side of the road.

I worked and slept.
I walked the sand beach
night after night
talking to the wind,
the ocean.

And I don’t even know
what reminded me today
a slant of shadow on the lawn
a song
drifting out
some stranger’s open window?

Give

Give
me
a slow day
like
this
one
any
day.

Listen

I am outside today
long enough to hear
the creak of the tree
next door and somewhere
down the street
a neighbor shovels
what sounds like gravel.

The cardinal scolds her mate
from the back fence
and from maybe a block away
a baby is crying.

Dream: Number Seven

In my dream
a big black dog
is at the door
and I ask
is it safe?

Can we let him in?